Choices:

You have a choice. Live or die.
Every breath is a choice.
Every minute is a choice.
Every time you don't throw yourself down the stairs, that's a choice. Every time you don't crash your car, you re-enlist.
-Chuck Palahniuk

I re-enlisted for another year of premium membership in Second Life today. While I appreciate Chuck's sentiment, living is the default state. It's what we do automatically, unconsciously. It's hard to overcome the will to live.

The Last Generation:

From Seth Godin:

What if, in some sort of sci-fi solar flare cataclysm, it was impossible for humans to have more kids? No more babies.

How would we treat the last generation? Would we say to the youngest student on Earth, "sorry the school is really run-down and crowded and poorly staffed, but we don't want to invest in you?" Would we let the last generation grow up in poverty, or would we do everything we could to ensure that this one last time, we did it right?

It's an intriguing question. I think we would do it right. Children would suddenly become the most important thing on earth.

The Speed of Darkness:

Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it.

    -Terry Pratchett, Reaper Man

The Horrible Truth:

Imagine you're stranded on an island. It's not unbearable. There's food. It's not really living, but you can survive. You would escape and never look back except for the impassable expanse of the ocean. You could make a raft, but you might die of thirst while lost at sea or drown if you're swept away from the raft by a storm. Escape is going to take more concentrated effort and will than you can sustain.

That's what my life is like. I'm slowly dying and I can't raise my energy to escape levels. I just plod along, one foot in front of the other. That's the horrible truth of my life.

Please Come Back:

I know you have almost given up. You barely come around any more. It's okay if you've been missing. We've all had our hearts broken too many times. Sometimes we need to get away by ourselves for awhile. Sometimes a long while.

You are whole, complete, perfect and have always have been. I would never try to improve upon perfection. If I could change anyone, I would change myself. But I think the greatest chapter of your life story has yet to be written. And if you'll let me, I'll help you write it.

Please come back. I love you.

Bukowski On SL:

What Bukowski would likely have written about Second Life:

I've had orgasms that lasted longer than the average SL relationship.

My New Crush:

My iPhone is killing me. I think I'm only about 10% as productive as I was before. Most of my day was spent playing Candy Crush. It's a deliciously addictive game, but I think I need some kind of intervention.

I Had a Great Day:

This morning I saw an email message from Second Life that someone had reviewed my Online Tracker. I immediately followed the link to see the review:

Absolutely cool
Posted March 12, 2014 by Joker Blackrain 5 stars

Very simple to use. Thank you :)

Five stars, woo-hoo! I was worried about it. I had a few problems getting the bugs out. This is version number four of the tracker. I'm glad my customers were so patient. Thank you Joker Blackrain.

But that's not all. Today I got an iPhone, for free! My employer gave it to me to use for work and I don't even need it. Suckers! I immediately made an Instagram account and started goofing off.

Sometimes the gods are merciful.

So Unfair:

From one of my favorite blogs, kibblex:

I hate how if a woman has sex with a bunch of guys she’s considered a slut, but if a guy does the exact same thing, he’s ‘gay’

The Adult Meme:

Strawberry Singh is getting frisky. This week's meme has questions of an adult nature. One of the questions is whether you have any fetishes. Berry confesses to one. I will let you read it for yourself and I'm sure you will. /me winks

I already confessed to my fetish in an earlier post entitled Fetishes Are Bad. My fetish is elf ears. I refuse to make love unless I'm wearing elf ears. It just feels dirty without them.

There are quite a few questions in the meme. I'll answer one more: which sexual position is your favorite?  

I like it on the bottom. It takes too much effort on top. That's why I'm not answering any more questions. I'm too lazy.

Indecision:

Never get involved with someone that is devoid of tattoos. It's shows a fear of commitment. Either that or good judgement.

A Sketch of Loneliness:

Why God is a Jerk:

A man said to the universe:

“Sir, I exist!"

“However,” replied the universe,

“The fact has not created in me

A sense of obligation.”

-Stephen Crane

Sounds profound doesn't it? But now imagine the following conversation:

A boy to his father:

"Sir, I exist!"

"However," replied his father,

"The fact has not created in me

A sense of obligation."

We all know that fathers that abandon their children are jerks. Well aren't we all god's children? And I haven't seen god around, ever. He created the universe and then abandoned us. On the other hand, I haven't seen many places were god would be welcome. So maybe we had it coming.