I'd like to think that I can be saved. That somehow I could be the hero of my own life story. That in the end, it was worth the suffering. That there was something good in me despite the plethora of mistakes, sins and errors in judgement. But I have no faith in salvation. I've worshiped lies, spat on my dreams and ignored my inner voice. The truth is, I don't deserve to be saved and won't be. Not all stories have a happy ending.